Im sorry

Don't say I lie once I tell you,
the story of a dreadful night.
One of sadness and of freight
I was reckless, thought it was fun.
Grabbed a drink,

Even though mom said none.

How would she know what not to do.

She can't come in my life and intrude.

Well that night I learned the hard way

Listen to mom, or you will pay.

Now here I am laying down

Around me are sorrow filled frowns

I realize what is wrong

My life wasn't long

I'm so sorry mom, I'm sorry dad

I know my actions have been bad

I didn't realize at the time

That everything would be the opposite of fine.

Don't drink and drive.

I Tried

I tried to go on like I never knew you.

I tried to make you go away.
I tried to say goodbye.

I tried so hard.

And failed.

I want to be in your arms.

I want to feel your warmth.

I want to feel safe.

I need all this.

That's true.

I said I would move on.

I said you meant nothing.

I said you were gone.

I said, no more.

I lied.

I meant how could you go?

I meant I love you.

I meant don't leave.

I meant, Why?

You still left.

How could you leave me?

How could you go?

How could you say I meant nothing.

How could you?

After Everything.

I tried to go on like I never knew you.

Your Love

I believed in you
I told myself you would be true

You became my light, my love, my life
So how could you take our love and sacrifice

Break a promise
Throw away
Every memory
Of everyday

I thought you said I was the one
So why did you go?
Pick up and run?

Are you afraid?
Are you scared?

Of your monster,
teeth large and bared

So from the start I wish I'd known

Your love would run and hide and leave me on my own

A Friend

When there's too much neglect
You may feel like your wrecked
All fake love and lies
Make you die inside
All the pain and fear
You think the end is near

But do not worry
And never scurry
There will always be a friend
To help you till the end
When times get rough
Friendship makes you tough

A bond that's so tight
You'll make it through the night
From dusk to dawn
A friend will never be gone
A friend will stick by your side
Even while you're in overdrive

A friend can get you out of trouble
Just say when and where
A friend will be there on the double

Flick the fear away
Friendship is here to stay
A friend.
Is forever

The Table

It was a simple day
Sun shinning
Birds flying
Peaceful, normal
Nothing out of the ordinary

I felt my stability shake
I felt the tables turning
The sun was no more
an eerie darkness took the wheel
Time ran out, taking me down with it

My control weakens leaving me unaware, vulnerable.
Harsh cold-bitter wind slaps across my skin
I know what is expected, I know what to do

Hide...

But I'm not like that, I'd rather

fight...

Fight my own battle, wage my own war

In each life there's a time to shine

Mine's Today

Through the window

I cried for help
No one came

Why oh Why
Do you play this game

I'm hurt and wounded
I'm ill and dying

It's cause of you
And your soulful lying

I'm shouting out somebody, anybody, please.
Help me live my life with ease.

Day after day
Night after night

I feel it in my bones,
An everlasting freight

This nightmare won't come to end
I have one request left, my friend ...

You would help me

If you didn't see

through the window , and right through me

Fade

Today.... Tomorrow... When....

How long will it be

Until I find me

Until I know

where to go

When can I step a step higher?

Out of my minds burning FIRE.

Too many faces to wear

I can try them all on

But they break and tear

Which one is me....

I can look all day

But never see

Everyday I will become more concealed

Too weak am I to reveal

The one face I have to find

Keeps itself from my mind

Past faces are shadows

There in my mind a familiar glow

Too many faces to wear

I can try them all on

But they break and tear

Which one is me

I can look all day

And never see

As my faces are all TORN

I can do nothing but sit and mourn

But through time I will see

Which face can really be me